Sleepless nights

I don't know what it is. I haven't had a full night of uninterrupted sleep for months now. At least since Amber got pregnant.

Some nights it will be Josh crying out. Sometimes Daniel will come into our room and want to sleep with us. Sometimes it's my mind racing and I can't stop thinking about stuff. It's different each night but even though we just got back from a 10 day vacation, I don't feel particularly rested and when Daniel woke up coughing and sick at 3:00, I had a feeling I'd be up for the day. I got him back to bed pretty easily but my mind was awake and worrying about all sorts of stuff.

I decided to spend some time catching up on over a week's worth of email and around 5:00, the computer froze up, which I took as a sign that I should try to go back to bed for at least a couple hours. My head had barely hit the pillow when I hear Josh weakly cry, "Mommy, Daddy." I got up and went in to see what his problem was. He had his pillow, blanket, soother, and stuffed sheep right next to him. He saw me and smiled and quietly said, "Daddy!" I gave him a hug and kiss and got him tucked in nice and cozy and he is asleep again. But I'm up now.

I've never been a light sleeper and I don't have trouble falling asleep at night - I will often doze off watching TV around 11:00, but ever since Daniel was born, I've had trouble going back to bed after about 3:00. With him, I actually went into work a few times around 5:00 and have done a few marathon housecleaning/laundry sessions under the stars.

I thought this would be over with now that Joshie is mostly sleeping through the night. But I guess God is preparing me for those 2 am feedings next winter. I'm actually looking forward to them.