Abandoned

We are in Calgary visiting and making preparations to move back. All this change is really getting to Daniel. We were out driving around looking for a house quite a bit yesterday. As we were on our way back to the place we were staying the boys were getting quite rowdy. Screaming like little girls rowdy. I became the father I didn't want to be and yelled,

"Do you want me to stop and you can get out and walk the rest of the way to Grandma's"

Poor Daniel, who is already a bit clingy, tried to process this idea along with other things we've told him about running off on his own and going into the street.

"Then you and Mom and Josh will drive to Grandma's? And I will have no family? And then I'll get hurted in the street? And runned over from the cars? And then I'll get all bleedy?"

Oh my! I'm glad we were only a block from Grandma's because I could barely contain myself enough to drive. I look over at Amber and her heart is breaking just the same.

"No, buddy. I would never leave you. I would never put you in the street by yourself. You will always have your family. Just please stop screaming."

Hopefully one of these days our lives will get settled and normal. I won't hold my breath.